Ordeal by innocence

Anyway, now, when I was trying to sleep the night after the nightmare, I could only manage to pull down my eyelids even though it was past midnight. Many questions as well as thoughts were whirling round my mind which were serving as whirlpools to vanish my sleep-- the stuff which could save me, at least for the time being, from the bottomless blue ocean of torture where I was drowning after my confidence-ship was destroyed by the sudden blow of the accident. "Was that my weakness that I was trying to maintain my religious manners and customs and so dressed myself accordingly?" "Wasn't she wrong in her suspicion and just trying to insult me?" These were some of those questions I w asked myself. I couldn't find any answer to the first question then. As for the second one, for the time being I thought she was.

But right now, while I am driving my pen along a zigzag course to draw a picture of my feelings, I think she was hardly responsible as it's not easy to see through somebody just by looking at them or just by working with them for a period of time. Those who were responsible for the heinous bomb attacks all over the country, who tried and are trying to stigmatise the fame and glory of peace loving people of the country and those of peaceful noble religion Islam, resemble myself outwardly and who knows what's going on into one's mind after all? Perhaps it was the reason that I fell victim to her suspicion. But it's high time that the authorities took proper steps to find out the criminals to retrieve and retain the reputation of the country and Islam as an advocate of peace and thereby save the pious true Muslims from being the victim of others' suspicion. At the same time I request everyone to judge the situation correctly and refrain from suspecting everybody.