PTSD

Martyrs and-slash-or heroes they call us
Is it worth all the fuss?
Noora Shamsi Bahar
Noora Shamsi Bahar
2 June 2023, 18:00 PM
UPDATED 3 June 2023, 15:15 PM
Martyrs and-slash-or heroes they call us
Is it worth all the fuss?
While they celebrate
We ache to recuperate

Like puppets that dance to the tune of the puppet master
Bodily integrity we had to barter
For a pawn's role in groupement
Dictated was our every movement
Down to our index trigger finger

Zombie-esque mindlessness
Anesthetized consciousness
Marching on, committing sins
Break-ins, bombings, burnings, slayings
Etched onto memories that retain the rawness

Some made it back
Seemingly in one piece, but with many a crack
On the inside, that cannot be discerned
Recurring nightmares of haunting experiences not penned
Self-annihilation the only thought that stuck

Martyrs and-slash-or heroes they call us
Is it worth all the fuss?
While they celebrate
We ache to recuperate
Our stories history shall never discuss

 

Noora Shamsi Bahar is a senior lecturer at the Department of English and Modern Languages, North South University, and a published researcher and translator.